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Still Alive

Every day hurts more than the last
More than I ever thought it could
And everyday you drift further away
And the nothing inside me grows and grows
Until its taken over my heart
This terrible nothing that has no name
This darkness inside me that surrounds me with shame
My soul mourns for the loss of me
Maybe I'm still here
Maybe I am this pain
That throbs and burns and swells
And maybe I've caused it all myself
I am no one special
I am the one to blame
I would have only done the same
With these cuts and with these pills
I hope only to calm the darkness
Its simply a sacrifice
And the pain stops for an instant
There is real pain after all
And it takes this blood for me to realize
I am still alive


Drip...Drop

The world has dripped away
drop by drop
and I'm left standing
there in nothing
There is no door
no windows...no hope
And everywhere I go
I run into myself
In all the blackness
I'm losing my mind
from the inside out
I get so scared
I cant hang on
and I fall and
I too d r i p   a  w   a    y

-Erin

Last update: Saturday, May 13, 2000 04:06


     
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